I did it

i got the tattoo!!!



I can't believe i did it. yes, it did cost a bit of money but i think it is worth it. No more spending money on anything but trips or school. :) I am glad i got it

List of things i did today:
- burnt mouth with hot chocolate at the train station
- went to the gallery we were going to rent and it was scary thought i was going to get rob while walking down the street and the place was small.
- went to camden, i got my tattoo here and it has the coolest clothes ever. i almost went crazy but i didn't.

well, i am falling asleep writing this. so i am going to head to bed.

miss you all terribly.

Love,
Marianna

P.S. I want to take photographs in tube stations. :)

they kill me slowly with daggers to my heart...

so, i got my feedback and grade. it killed me a little. depressing.So she gives me my feedback. Here it is...They liked my night photography. They said i should stick with photography and not do any mediums. I should find my voice in the photographs and the photographs should be unique. I should see what I see when i take photographs and not have it emotional driven. blah blah. ahh. So more night photography and i don't know what I am going to do. :(

WHERE IS MY VOICE? HOW CAN I MAKE IT UNIQUE? this is kinda of annoying me and eating away at me...

okay. so yeah...

But i got postcards from Vanessa! WOO HOO! The card from Shannon finally! :) It made my day. I think my package that i ordered from amazon came in too! i gotta check that on Friday! Super excited!!!! ahhh.

I am going nuts. yeah, i know. i do most of the time but yeah. I gotta check out the times for the bus tomorrow morning. Gotta take the 603 to the train station to meet up with Kristina at 9:30am. blah. :D early early.

good night.

Love,
marianna


EDIT!

so this might be new tattoo:

depending on how much it cost! :D

i am going to get this...

can someone...

send this to me please?


i really want one now! :D lmao.

Had a good day. lonely and silent for the being but at the end it was good.

still going on..

so life hasn't stopped since everyone has left. It seems interesting. Talking to my flatmates more which is kinda of weird but it is good. lmao. I am so thankful that I talk to Melanie everyday since she has been gone. It is nice and routine.

I got out of my room today. It was nice. I walked on St. Albans Way. It was beautiful. I was so thankful the sun decided to make an appearance. :D so beautiful. I swear England has been really growing on my lately. The walking part. I don't feel scared at night even though i should probably but it seems nice just walking alone on a street. I don't care if people stare at me now when i take photographs. WOO HOO! :D

Tomorrow is the official start of Semester B! I find out my grade on Wednesday for my studio practices. so freaking scared about that. I have new ideas for this semester which is awesome. I think going to take more portraits to capture the person's feelings or soul or whatever something like that which i will have to bs in an artist statement. lmao.

Thanks to nes, i am listening to country songs, like Tim McGraw "Where the Green Grass Grows" and missing home. Yes, i do miss home but not that much. I miss everyone but I am not letting it consume me which is nice. I just wish people would email me or send me letters. I feel like I disconnected to the world back home. I am missing so much because the lack of communication. By time I get home I bet Virginia will have boyfriend, Jean and LaRoman will be engaged, Vanessa and Bryan will have jobs and moving into an apartment, Kelly will be so happy after finishing the externship, and Lanesa will either pregnant or will thinking about getting engaged to Shane. yes. I wonder if this will be true. 5 months is a long time. :D

Hey, maybe on the bright side, I will find a boyfriend over here. YEAH RIGHT! I am making great friends and I am going to miss them. I am scared of getting to attached to level one kids and leaving them at the end. I think i am going to cry with them. I almost did with Whitney, and Melanie. :( England makes you too sensitive i swear.

Well, I should really go to bed. I know it is almost 11pm. I was going to bed an hour ago...lmao. but then i got addicted with youtube.

like watching this...


okay.. good night. will write tomorrow during studio time :D miss you all

love,
Marianna

P.S. photograph from today!

this kinda of scares me...

i don't know...the eyes maybe...but she creeps me out.

it is from http://www.theworkshopworkbook.com/index2.php?v=v1#/home/ website...

must see...

book of eli...the end.


lmao. will write more tomorrow. so tired right now.

So tell me when you hear my heart stop....

okay, i really like that song and the part in New Moon. I think that was the best part out of the whole movie. lmao. Yeah, just being random.

I am doing better. I am not feeling as depressed as I was this morning. No one should look at my sketchbook. really bad and depressing. lol. I am going to start making collages in my sketchbook. It helps me. Also, my project "Circle" is helping me release frustration... :) I did another piece of tonight. I have 5 more to color then another part of it will be done. I hope it turns out alright.

I took some photographs on the way home when i was walking. It felt really good. I miss just walking around and taking photographs. I am debating on one day tackling the path to Welwyn Garden City. It is about 4.3 miles to the town. I think it would be cool. I would go through a lot of fields and stuff but i might die. lol. I wonder if Tina would go with me during a sunny day. lmao. :)

I am going to do a night shoot tomorrow around De Havilland Campus. I wonder how this is going to work. I might try by the scary tunnel that is near the Hotel and Forum. I wonder if I can go to the Police Station as well and take photographs. I don't know how that is going to work. If i have the guts, I can go to St. Albans and take some photographs of the Cathedral at night which is near the Town Centre and I can take the bus back to Hatfield. :) It should be okay.

Still going through with Project 365! The battle is still going on.

OH DUDE! There was a dryer battle today! Everyone was doing their wash and i needed to mine so i had to wait over 30 minutes to get a washer then another. After that all the dryers were full and people don't come back to take their laundry. Morons. Yeah, so it was like me and this dude who had to battle for them. so bad yet so funny. This Uni doesn't understand that they need more than 6 washers and dryers for over 100 something students in the one hall. People from other halls come over and wash too! SO BLAH! They need like 20 of each! Less waiting around for the washer. Or i should go back to my schedule of waking up super early on Sunday to do it.

I have been sleeping really good lately except for the last two nights. Had nightmares about the chick from the grudge and the ring. it was freaking scary. It was just her face and i couldn't get it out of my head. horrible horrible. Other than that is has been wonderful. I love my pillow. best 4 pounds i ever spent!

I ordered a new battery for my canon camera and some film! I gotta go and get my film developed tooo! :D

oh dear, I am writing a lot. I don't think I ever really updated about the Photographer, Ian. Well, HE IS THE BEST! It makes me want to do more photography with portraits. I am writing a list of things i need to get when I go home. I have a portable flash already. I just have to see if it would work with my Pentax or I should just switch to a Canon 5D Mark 2. Yeah, right. Like i have that money for it. but his photographs, bloody amazing. AHH... I am thrilled that I work very well with him. I was scared but it went well. Now i sent him more dates when i am free so hopefully something will happen again.

yeah, craziness. Dude, the chick upstairs is going nuts! Making so much noise. blah. People are moving into the flat this weekend. People left. I am really sad. Going to miss Melanie and Whitney the most! My best friends over here. Deborah and Susie too! I gotta find more people to hang out with.

It was great. The little level one kids were checking up on me. :D The other ones are talking to me more which is nice. Hopefully monday will be louder. silence at the studio kills me. i am going to put on my radio on monday. people are getting rowdy outside. annoying.

okay, i think this is a really long update! sorry! I just have so much to get off my chest about things. oh dear. I am lame. OH! I cleaned up my room so it is organized and my wardrobe looks nice!!! Tomorrow hopefully london or photographs around the area. :)


Here is a photograph from today:


This is was photograph from another day. I forgot when...:


took this while waiting for Melanie to meet me so we could get some food:

our last Mc D's run together. :(

one of the walls with my work up in the studio:

this was for my final presentation. I took down some photographs and gave them to Whitney. Last day seeing here today. :(

Depressing...
ahhh

Love,
Marianna

P.S. Listening to Avril Lavigne isn't working either. lmao.

good bye...

i really hate good byes! I feel so bad. BLAH! I wish I didn't have to say it to people. Said good bye to three friends and now another one. :( I am in a funk right now creatively because of this. Everything I write or draw is dark. i wrote a whole page of words that relate to sadness. lmao. I know I will see them again someday but I am not sure when. :(

So, I'm kinda of on my own now for awhile until I can find someone to have tag alone for night shoots. I am going to try some night photography this weekend by myself and see how it turns out and if anything happens. Just my ipod and I out for an adventure. One time, I think I am going to try to go to London by myself to the National Gallery. I think that would work. lmao.

But I need to run back downstairs to put my clothes in the dryer. I finally got room in there! :D

Will write more later tonight.

Love,
Marianna

P.S. in the presentations you go for to study abroad, they don't really actually say how hard it is to say good bye to those friends you made. It can really crush you. Also, for those who have boyfriends and girlfriends, hurts them even more too. Heartbreaking.

No more

COFFEEE...it is built up all day now i am hyper and it is bloody midnight! argh. must try to sleep soon...boooo!

this is my 200th post! OMG! 200!!!!!

going nuts

new ideas, new due dates, new stress, what else can a new semester bring? Oh yeah, NO MONEY YET TO BUY FREAKING ART SUPPLIES BECAUSE FINANCIAL AID HASN'T GONE THROUGH YET. WTF! :(

but in other news, I got a package from someone. Going to pick it up tomorrow. Super excited! WOO HOO!

Today was good until

i got a note from the university about the noise level from my flat. everyone got one. this is stupid. blah. people here suck at being quiet.

but today was good other than that. I got my stuff turned in and I assisted Ian. :D I have a long list of stuff i learned today but i will post it now or tomorrow. i'm just dying here.

so sleepy. haven't gotten enough sleep lately. blah. :D

I keep asking my mom the same question over and over again. :D

Anywho, I must be going...so sad.

Love,
Marianna

sunday

the monument
london zoo
yummy italian food
underground
circles


more to come :D

saturday

what i did:
bus trip
wellington arch
rain
lots of guards
got ran into from a guard
guards on horses
buckingham palace
scotish music
horses
big ben
river cruise
Shakespeare globe theatre
my battery in river thames
tower of london
subway
tower bridge experience
by london bridge experience too scary
back to pier
bus ride home
cranky driver



more to come!

Today was awesome.

So, you know I was so scared about helping the photographer out but it was amazing! He was super nice and has a great work ethic. Yeah, extremely helpful and willing to help me out with things! :D BONUS!

Things that happened today:

- listened to him discuss what the process of taking the photographs and how he was going to take it. He received feedback from Katie (the person who hired him) and Matt (the graphic designer for the brochure). They feed ideas off of each other.

- was the model for his test shots.
- staircase, hallway, outside, headshots, and other stuff

- helped set up for the head shots.
- lights and background

- editorial photographs
- chris brown
- Moody

- held the reflector for the editorial photographs
- followed him around

- was friendly and helped people relaxed

- Young girl (MBA Student)
- library (LRC)
- auditorium
- hallway
- 3rd floor lights in the background

- held the flast most of the day
- gave a suggestion about a pose

- took down equipment and helped out

- asked to help again on Monday :D

- get a copy of the photographs!!!

- learned about portable flash portable
- how to change strength

- reflectors

- headshots
- 45 degrees angle
- 2 strobe lights acute packs!
- umbrella
- white backdrop
- 3 positions

- group photographs.

time to go to bed soon! :D

London all day tomorrow! byeeee

scared

tomorrow is the assisting the photographer. ARGH! I don't know what to do! AHOASN:FLKAN:FAK!

But i saw these:



aren't they cute...

I've been working on school stuff since 10:30am and it is 11:15pm. ARGH. I am going insane.

Tomorrow is going to be crazier and a party too. I might stop for a bit. then weekend in London! WOOOO


Good Night all.

Love,
Marianna.

Massive Update tomorrow!

OH yeah,
-evaluations
- enterprise and employability info
- semester b
- trips

those things i have to talk about tomorrow!!

wish

i was at the beach. now it is time for bed. it is 11.15 and i am dying. good night all. tomorrow is a busy day. death maybe. lmao.

stressed out.

i have no idea what I am going to do for my final project. ARGH! It is due by Monday. FAIL FAIL! :(



i wish i was there instead of here right now.

I gotta get it done!!! RESEARCH!

Good day!

good good day! Spent a million hours in the studio. Was slightly productive. I got a lot of things done I think. lmao. But I got a phone call from the photographer i wanted to assist and I will be assisting him on friday!!! I am super excited. I am saying screw school because they don't say anything to me about it. whatever. I have to figure out what I am going to put on my wall for my final presentation. i am drawing a blank. I wonder if there was a white wall what would happen. lmao. I love hanging out in the studio with Melanie! So Much funnn!

Yeah. great day. Ended it with watching two episodes of Legend of the Seeker. Denna is a great episode!!! ahhh!!! I am so addicted to this show.

Tomorrow is Melanie birthday! She is turning 21!!!! :D HAPPY BIRTHDAY MELANIE!

Wednesday: LONDON! GALLERIES! I might buy Art Review magazine.

Thursday: Turning in my projects!!!

Friday: PHOTOSHOOT WITH IAN SCOTT! PARTY

Saturday: LONDON

Sunday: LONDON

Monday: Assessment!

Tuesday: Assesmment

Wednesday: NOTHING

Thursday: Nothing

Friday: NOTHING!

OOOOOOOOOO


then all of my dear friends are leaving. :( GOING TO CRY but they will be happy to be back home.

i'm alive!

i just had the best talk with lanesa! Gosh, I miss her so much! Went from okay to CRAZY three conversations! what the heck. We are totally crazy then we brought in Virginia as well!!! it was so good.

i slept in this morning! it was sweeeet! Got ready and then got a phone call from Michael seeing if i wanted to go to a zoo or museum with him and Whitney. We went to the zoo!! :D

here is a link: http://www.flickr.com/photos/softspokenmc/sets/72157623182556650/

We saw lots of animals and it was crazy ride there. snow kinda of scares me. lmao. It was first time to go to the zoo in the snow! I loved the white tigerrrr.



SO awesome.

Okay, I am going to go now. I will write more tomorrow in the studio. Back to school tomorrow morning. going to get to the studio by 9:30am.

love,
Marianna

P.S. my kitchen is a giant mess again. booo.

one more day

one more day of vacation before i go back to school. Monday is going to consist of me being in the studio all day! yup all day. 9am to 5pm or a little longer! i am going to get things done. :D

TWO MORE WEEKS BEFORE MY FRIENDS LEAVE HERE. :( I AM SUPER SAD. I AM GOING TO CRY WHEN THEY LEAVE.

this sucks.

off to bed maybe.

seriously

i think i should become a hair dresser. i just cut Susie's hair and bangs. I can do swooping bangs now. omg. I can't believe I did it.

I fell again today. totally on my leg and butt. I am banning walking for awhile. horrible. Before i fell i was like doing the dance when you keep on slipping. yeah. not fun.

I made soup for lunch and sandwich for dinner. otmorrow is soup again and yummm. :D

Okay, i am waiting for mom to come online.

love you all!

love,
Marianna

P.S.

My project is complete:


just these six but i have to wait to buy more paper. Stupid norton renew my subscription so i am out 55 dollars! :( So no thrilled.

My soup:

i fell

i fell right on my back today. horrible. I was walking, it was dark, icy streets, right in the middle, at least no one was there. I didn't know I was falling until I was on my back. My camera didn't break, that god for the camera case I got here. My whole back is hurting now and my arms. I can barely sit. lol. I am on a pillow right now. This is pretty horrible but totally funny tooo! It was just amazing how I did it. lol.

:D

Here is a photographs from tonight:

Snow Day!!!

It was a snow day today. Whitney and I decided not to go to London. It was snowing heavily outside! Like snowflakes like a quarter size. lmao. Now it stopped. It supposed to snow again tomorrow then all weekend. It is going to be freezing. I have to go to asda soon to get more food. lmao. I hope my bread last another couple of days.

Here is a photograph of a tree when I walk on a little walk with Susie!


So, I made some artwork which I am like woo on. It was fun doing it. Inspired by Vans checker slip on because I miss my van slip ons.



Tomorrow, I have to start a proposal to get sponsor for our gallery show. It is still on! It is going to be crazy. I have to find another 5 people to join us. A theme as well.

haha

Good Luck to me.

Anyways, I hope you all have a good day!!! It is almost 8:30 and Melanie is going to make Won Ton Soup! so excited!

Love,
Marianna

Snow

I'm starting to hate snow. lol. Yeah. it screws everything up. :)

Today was great. I actually got up at 9:16am!!! :D So happy! Then I got to the studio around 10:45am! Stayed there until 1ish and headed to Asda with Melanie!!! I'm so excited that she is back! I get my studio buddy back for the next 2 and half weeks before she leaves. :( So sad. We headed to Mc Donald's our favorite yummy place. :) We got pillows!! It is amazing. I can't wait to sleep on it tonight. I'm very tempted to go just jump into bed but I want to finish this blog first.

After our trip to Asda, I went back to the STUDIO! Can you believe it?!?! i can't. lol. I stayed there until 6 something because it was just getting tooo cold to be in there! I have no idea why don't they have heaters on in there. I might invest in a small heater! Walking home was freezing cold. Since around 8 something it has been snowing! I was so thankful that I left when I did or I would have been walking in the snow.

I'm scared about our trip to London tomorrow. Everything basically gets shut down and no one really travels. The trains reduce their service and so do the buses. Hopefully, everything will work out but I am worried about Whitney as well. She is sick. :( I'm so sad. I hope she gets better soon! I told her not to worry about tomorrow. If it still snows, and the buses don't run then I'm stuck in my room. lol.

I uploaded a lot of photographs maybe about 100 or more! i'm so happy about it!

here are the links to the sets:
Amsterdam (just photographs of us but no artsy ones yet):http://www.flickr.com/photos/softspokenmc/sets/72157623083966628/
December 23rd: http://www.flickr.com/photos/softspokenmc/sets/72157623019271269/
Rain drops:http://www.flickr.com/photos/softspokenmc/sets/72157623019467707/
December 27th: http://www.flickr.com/photos/softspokenmc/sets/72157623144144308/
January 1st: http://www.flickr.com/photos/softspokenmc/sets/72157623019641173/

More to come later! :)


Oh yeah, big news! The photographer I wanted to shadow/assist in the summer in Redding, said she would be happy to have me! i'm so thrilled!!!!!! :) I have to email her back and be like THANK YOU SO MUCH. lol. This means I get to spend maybe three weeks in Redding this summer with Shannon, Sam, Coltyn, Connor, and Laura, possibly Ed! lol. This is going to GREEATTT! I'm thrilled. I should email laura about it.

Well, I am going to hit the sack now! Good night all I gotta wake up around 7:30am tomorrow. Not looking forward to it.

Love,
marianna

the previous post

was unfinished and I thought i should just post it anyways and have it there. But I am going to get somethings done then write an entry! :D

so its a week before i start my classes back up again.

and it about two weeks before my friends leave back to the states. I am going to be totally sad for the first weekend.

really doesn't understand people

why in the world would you leave this stuff in the kitchen when you know you are going away for about three weeks?!?!?! WHY!?!?!?







it smelled and I almost threw up! It is so freaking gross!!!! I am debating on going to the help desk and talking to them about it. Cause this is just gross. I can't believe who ever left this!!!! WHY!?!?!?!

so that is my frustration for the day.

sick >: |

this totally sucks...i'm getting sick again. WHY!?!?! I've been taking my vitamins and vitamin C...I guess i just need to get used to the weather again. it is freezing outside.

blah.

christmas tree....

i kinda of like it...what do you think?

Day two of the new year

I'm still surviving and kicking butt!

Today consisted of going to asda, doing my wash, cleaning my room, making stir fry for dinner, cutting deborah's and whitney's hair, and eating lots of cookies that kelly made. it was one wonderful day.

I think i can survive the rest of the semester here! :D I can do it! woo hoo!

Going to go to bed soon.

Good Night.

Love,
Marianna

I survived

I survived January 1st! Now the race is on! lmao. Tomorrow is going to be busy and I love it!

Good night. :D

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

IT IS OFFICIALLY 2010 RIGHT NOW IN ENGLAND!

5 months and 5 days until i'm home.
3 months until i see Libbi
4 months and 7 days until i see Mom and Virgie
4 months until i see Dad and Pat
1 month and 9 days until Scotland? Northumberland
24 days until Whitney leaves.
24 days until a new semester
21 days until Melanie, Deborah, and Susie leave
19 days until Emma-Lee leaves
17 or 18 days until final assessment
14 days until i have homework due
2 days until Scotland

i'm so lame.