June 4th
so i wrote in my journal earlier about leaving well, here is a longer version.
I said my good bye to people I have met and grown close too. I am torn between two places now. I did not think this would actually happen you know. I did not think I would be able to make such great and amazing friends. It is so hard. I hate saying good bye to them. I get to say good bye to Kaz and Tina tomorrow. It is going to be hard. :( I am going to miss them terribly. They have helped me through so much this semester. I know I am going to keep in touch with them. It will be brilliant. :) Saying goodbye to Hanna and Sarah was hard too. They were such great people! I am glad I got to know them. :)I didn't get to say a goodbye to Charlie and some other level one kids. I know they are going to succeed in life. they are all amazing artist. :)
Saying goodbye to Ian and Emma was hard too. I am going to miss helping them out and learning about business aspect of bring a freelance photographer. They have taught me so much!!! I hope I get to come back for graduate school here so I can work with them again. :)
I never knew how much of an impact on people and how they have an impact on me. I actually can't believe it. Everyone keeps asking when I will be back and the answer i can give them is when i have enough money again to travel to the UK. I will definitely come back. I can't believe i'm going to cry about leaving England. It has become a part of me. It has changed me for the better and I still can't believe i have gone to places like Germany, Italy, Holland, Scotland, Wales, and Ireland. In England, I have gone to Oxford, Bath, Canterbury, London, Leeds, St. Albans, Welwyn Garden City, Wheathampstead, Brighton, Burford, Whitey, Cirenchester, Bourton on the water, Stroud, Hatfield, Maidstone, Stonehenge, and Luton.
I learned a lot about myself this year. I know now i can face the leaving my family, and friends and still be able to survive. I know now that I can succeed with my photography and can explain it. I know I can do traveling by myself. I still don't know myself that well. I'm still struggle grasping what i need but I am need to accomplish my goals that I set before myself. I know i have enough courage and strength to face pretty much a shit load of crap. I know that I have an extremely supportive and loving family that has helped me throughout my trails. I know who my true friends are and I am glad that I have them.
I would if i could send everyone abroad and have them experience what I have experience throughout these nine months. Nine months away from everyone. crap. It puts thing in perspective and helps you understand more about yourself and the cultures/environment you face. You see how truly ignorant some people are and ridiculous they are.
Well, it is almost eleven o'clock at night and I'm super tired. lol. I should be heading to bed soon cause i gotta wake up at 5am. lol. :)
I hope you all have a great time.
Love,
Marianna :)
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