not enjoying

I am not enjoying taking photographs anymore. I'm annoyed with everything I have been producing lately. ALL OF IT IS SHIT. HORRIBLE SHIT. I am just blah. Diana photographs, shit, Holga photographs, shit, digital photographs, shit. grr. Everything is bloody bad or not in focus or pixels. ARGH. WHY CAN'T A FIND A PLACE THAT HAS GOOD QUALITY WITH SCANNING NEGATIVES AND MAKING DIGITAL IMAGES. argh. I miss my old places i went too. I miss my scanner and printer at home. I miss a lot of things. This is not what I want to be producing. Why can't i get it right? Should i still do photography or give it all up and stick with art history? This is just a shitty day. real shitty. The prints cost 60 pounds which is like around 100 dollars. argh. argh. argh. Just shoot me. I need to put the aperture to 22 or higher and let it go. I need a cable release. I need why?!?!?! seriously. i want to punch something right now.

I'm sick of everything. I need my mom to come sooner than later. I wish it was April 7th. or At least March 30th so I can see Libbi and Vicki. Some familiar faces. I'm sick of it here. :(

Might be giving up. :(