life continues

so, life continues on and we are moving closer to the end here. As each day passes by I am thrilled to be heading home back to California seeing my friends, my dogs, family, and just being able to relax. But at the same time I feel like i need to continue traveling and visiting places. Your perception of things really change when you enter a place that you have never been too. I have learned that I can adapt to things that I never I could have. Seeing these things and photographing them don't really give them justice. You don't feel like you are in London without hearing the sounds of traffic passing by, the sound of the people speed walking by, and people honking their horns. Or at the Cotswold, you don't hear the birds chirping, the wind passing through the trees, and the sun beating down on your face. It is amazing just staying there and capturing the moment.

things really do change when you are away from home. you realize things aren't always going to be the same thing. things keep changing and nothing ever goes back to normal. the cycle of knowing that you can leave without some people and can't without others. the struggle of actually breaking out of a shell and emerging. People aren't going to like it and going to leave.

I think the shell that was around me is going to be broken by the time I get home. I am going to break it and not give in to anyone anymore. I will speak my mind and tell people to shut the f up. :) That would be a nice turn in events. lol

It is weird, this time last year, i was sitting in my home watching television and waiting for the word about being accepted to the University of Hertfordshire. Now, i'm here in England, waiting to get home. a year away has really helped me out. I now have the direction of photography i want to continue to work with and to experiment with film and try to get it. :D I think it should be awesome. I have met a lot of wonderful people.

Well, it is time to sleep.

Love,
Marianna.